I don't want to be in love. What is love? Its a feeling and like all emotions it can be controlled. You choose who you let into your heart. And everytime I've done that it has only been a learning experience. Love: strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties.(www.merrian-webster.com). What the fuck does that even mean? Affection: a moderate feeling or emotion.(www.merrian-webster.com). Again a "feeling or emotion." Emotion like ones anger can be controlled. So I will live without that certain type of emotion. Of course there are different types of love, like the different stages on ones anger, and I don't need to get into that. My love for my friends and family will always be strong, and with every learning experience my love only grows stronger for them. My heart will always be willing to make friends, but I'm sick and tried of it.

Other than I've been living in North Carolina, with Vincent Monks. Weird I know, but none the less has been a great time. I made two new friends, Shawn and Ashley, who I hope I stay in contact with. Also major shout out to SUN-E and the whole HugoHouse! Major props!!! The whole RS crew. Ambers fucking funny. From having the hotel go from leaking to being blown the fuck off, to wireless internet and great meals. Its been a long road down here. I've learned alot of shit. I'm not as easy to live with or get along with as I thought I was. I also found out that I can be a wiseass alot of the time. Another flaw in my array of flaws.

Well, I'll be coming back sometime in early December I hope. I've been kinda booted. It's my own fault. I don't hold grudges, just sweet THC in my lungs. It's a joke. Of course! I will not miss waking to the television on full volume while ashley sleep soundly on the couch. I will also not miss, the cats. Yes, sorry shawn its a hard fact of life, cats make my eyes itch, my nose runny, and my mood angier. So, even though your cats and myself shared a special bond, in that she (preggy powder) shit all over my clothes. It's special. I treasure it. But it will not be missed. And going to clubs with porkchop. Never again.

All in all I can't wait to get back to Greenwich, NY 12834! Hit up some old friends, Olly and Crows, Jborgesandcompany, Leah, berly, neenaa, sarahstacytiffeliz. And make some more friends, of course.